Thursday, August 16, 2012

What's mine is mine.

This is what 7 months looks like...


I love him to pieces! And he sure is loving that tongue lately! I keep checking for teeth but there is none to be found! He's all over the place these days. He has perfected his army crawl and he tries to follow me everywhere. And when he is hungry he heads towards the corner of the kitchen where he KNOWS I keep his bottles. He's too smart for his own good! He's gotten into the dog food more times than I can remember. I even hid it from him around the corner and he spotted it! And now he knows it's there. He loves to cruise in his walker but gets stuck too often and starts to yell. He finally got the hang of sitting up on his own. I'm just more excited about not having to drag his car seat to every store now. He's learned he can pull himself up with assistance and that's all he wants to do now. I'll put my hands on the ground and he gets so excited and hurries over and grabs my hands and gets up! Then he gets annoyed that I'm still holding on to him. Let go! Sometimes I wish he could just walk already! He is just so busy! And he loves when we clap for him. He gets a huge smile and gets so excited. It's so cute! HE is so cute!

At his 6 month check up 2 weeks ago we found out he still isn't gaining weight! I swear I stuff that kid full! He was only 13.6 pounds. When he had surgery over 2 months ago he weighed 14.5 pounds. I figure he's just a skinny little boy like his dad but the fact that it has been taking him so long to put his before surgery weight back on worries me just a little. I brought him in for a weight check on Tuesday and he only gained 6oz in the last 2 weeks. His doctor still wasn't pleased with the progress and said to feed him more! So if I thought I stuffed him before I sure am now and he eats everything I give him! We also saw his surgeon again a few weeks ago for another check up. He was still very happy with how his lip and nose are looking. I mentioned his weight and he said we'll see him back in 3 months and discuss his palate surgery then. In the mean time we continue to beef him up! He needs all the extra weight he can gain so he can lose it again after another surgery...

I finally feel like his eating has improved. (Huge sigh of relief) He has been much quicker and only occasionally has trouble. His spoon feeding has been a ton better too! It rarely comes out his nose any more. It took him a while but he learned how to swallow it with out pushing it out his nose. THAT has to be tricky. If you think about it your palate has a major roll in swallowing. Go ahead, swallow. Now imagine swallowing with a big gap in the roof of your mouth that leads straight to, and out, your nose! That's some pretty tricky maneuvering that has to be done. Poor guy though, as soon as he gets the hang of eating it just gets all messed up again by his NAM, surgery, and now surgery again. Babies shouldn't have to be troubled with eating and surgeries and pain. But you know what? He is just that much stronger. I really admire him for all this extra stuff he has to go through. It's all he's ever known I guess. It's all I've ever known too! I feel like my next baby will be a breeze! With the hope that it will be cleft free. I'll be glad when this palate surgery is behind us. And by then we'll need another vacation.

A couple of weekends ago we went to the Craniofacial Foundation of Arizona's retreat at a Phoenix resort. We got to stay 2 nights and it all it costed us was $60! We had a nice big room and even got t-shirts. It was just a relaxing weekend! We went to the parent focus group our second day there. I was hoping to meet other parents with cleft babies but it was a little different than both me and Curtis expected. There was only a few parents there that we notice that had children with clefts. There was even older patients there that had clefts that we met. Most of the stories I heard and saw were much more sever than a little ol' cleft lip and palate. I don't remember any of the names they were diagnosed with but they all had to do with facial and head deformities. Some affected their eyesight, hearing, and other deformities of their body. And some to the point where they were mentally challenged. We met the parents of a 3 year old who was deaf and their whole family and even the little girl all knew sign language already. Two other parents we met had kids with the same thing and were both told it was a one in a million diagnosis but they found each other online and are now good friends and help each other out. That was kinda cool. One had a daughter who was only 16 and had already been through 26 surgeries! 26! It was crazy to hear. That night they also fed us dinner and on our last day they fed us breakfast. It was real nice and we want to go again next year.

I loved hearing all the different stories and to see the huge amount of hope these parents had in their children. It really, really made me thankful for Hudson. To see how much worse it could have been for him or us. I can't even image what those parents have been through compared to Hudson's NAM experience and his ONE surgery so far. It makes what I worry about seem so simple. I'll take mine over theirs any day! There is always someone out there who has it worse than you. We need to be thankful for our own trials.





1 month old and 6 1/2 months old



My 3 stooges.





Nothing is cuter than that sweet little face and big blue eyes of his.

Monday, July 30, 2012

San Diego

The phrase "time flies when your having fun" is sure the truth. A vacation is never long enough. We drove to San Diego this last weekend and stayed with our good friends Bill and Jeanne in their cute little home. It was a much NEEDED and DESERVED vacation after all the events this year has brought. It was a relaxing and laid back trip. We sure enjoyed ourselves! Hudson was pretty much awesome the whole trip EXCEPT the day we were leaving. He was just acting in a way I'm sure Curtis and I both felt like acting on the last day of our vacation.

He was really a good boy though. He was a trooper through everything we dragging him around to! Naps are hard to work around! But he hardly fussed at all. I'm not surprised though. He's an angel. The first 2 days there we spent at the beach and Sea Port Village. Being the busy little boy he is Hudson loved looking around at everybody and everything new. He loved the sand. He would grab handfuls and just play with it with his fingers. The worst part was keeping sand out of his eyes! Sand was EVERYWHERE! Baby powder was a life saver, thanks to pinterest. The third day there Curtis's brother took us to the San Diego Zoo. It was huge! And on a mountain so my legs are sore now! And that night Curtis and I went to the San Diego Temple which was only minutes away! It was a nice way to end our vacation, humbly. As excited as I was to bring Hudson to the beach I'm even more excited when he's older and can actually enjoy all the trips we take.

And here is our trip in pictures. Unfortunately a ton of sand got on our camera and after that it wouldn't focus right so some pictures are blurry.

He was so good on the way there! He fussed for like 30 seconds and then just went to sleep. He kept looking up to try and see me.


On our way!









That would be Hudson sleeping all bundled up.


Sea Port Village





I love this picture but his face is so blurry!


He's such a cheese.




Take one

Take 2

Take 3 Grrrr







His souvenir.


This was right after we got through Maricopa on our way home. Crazy storm was going on! There was a policeman who was not letting anyone go because I guess there was 0 visibility while driving. We only had to wait 10 minutes though. But it was still really bad until we got to the 10. It was a good welcome home gift. And good thing too because our grass was not being watered while we were gone!

Monday, July 16, 2012

Are you smarter than a 6 month old?


This boy, I tell you what, he amazes me more and more everyday. I love him! And I love that I get to be with him every day! Today he is 6 months old! That's half a year! I can't believe it. I'm already excited about planning his first birthday party! It's going to be basketball themed of course! I know everyone says it but I'm going to say it again... time goes by sooo fast! But I love it! I love how he learns so much every day. It's so fun to watch him figure things out. He'll turn toys over in his had and I can just see his little brain working hard to figure them out. He focuses so hard and works so hard. He is so determined. He knows what he wants and he goes for it!! He inspires me... I wouldn't be surprised if he grew up to be someone who worked with his hands. Like an architect or even a surgeon! He's so delicate with everything he touches. He focuses on the details. The other day he was trying to grab a tiny little charm on my mom's bracelet. He was really focusing on it for a while. I thought it was funny that he was going after that rather than all the toys that were spread around him. He's got some mighty fine motor skills already. He also likes to find the tags off anything and then rub them on his face. Especially when he's tired and he could put himself to sleep doing it. He's so precious.

He is also MY baby so I think everything he does is extraordinary and amazing! He's the smartest little 6 month old I've known! ;) This past week he has been working on crawling! It so cute to see him get up on his knees and wobble. Since he hasn't mastered crawling yet he now army crawls. Which is hilarious to watch. He's getting better at it too. I know he'll keep me on my toes once he starts to crawl! He is still working on sitting up. He can't do it by himself yet. How do they know that just laying there isn't the end?

Eating still has not been perfected. It's a hit and miss. Sometimes he'll do good and others he'll fuss through the whole thing. Before his surgery he used to try and hold his bottle himself but now he strains through the whole thing. His fists are clenched and he's always moving around. It's so frustrating! I can't even hold him when I feed him anymore. I just lay him on a pillow or the arm of the couch and hold the bottle for him. It's rough. And spoon feeding is always fun! That's also a hit and miss.

I really try hard not to blame everything on his surgery. He's been so different since he had it though. I'm sure it's just him being a baby and going through different phases... And here I thought the NAM was a pain. I'll take those days back any day! Sometimes I find I forget he even had a cleft lip and it makes me sad. I do miss it. It's funny how devastated we were when we first found out and now I would trade it back in a second! Not that I don't love his new lips any different of course. But that sweet little face was what we were given and we loved it instantly and I miss it. It's so hard to explain my feelings. As focused as the world is on looks and perfection Hudson was such a blessing to us and a reminder that looks don't mean a thing! I would have kept that little smile forever if I could... It makes me really think about all the babies in foreign countries born with cleft lips and palates who still have them when their older because their country doesn't have the means to have it repaired. It must be so scary in those 3rd world countries to have a baby with a cleft. And here we are so taken care of. We are so so blessed to live in this country and in this time to have that security that our baby is in good hands. And I'm thankful for the doctors who travel to those countries and perform cleft repairs. One day when I'm rich I'm going to donate thousands of dollars to those foundations. I wish I could talk with the mothers of cleft babies over there and tell them how beautiful their child is! It makes me want to do something big... Maybe I'll write a book. One day... For now I'll love on my little Hudson and think of how blessed he is to have been given to US.

"Hold the paparazzi"

Hudson 1st 4th of July. We enjoyed the weather!


Being the goofy boy he is...




I love us!



He loves his baths! I hate taking him out!

We've been taking walks to the park... I'm taking in as much of this wonderful weather as I can!



I love it!

The food battle continues. The food usually wins.

And our beautiful lawn! It's loving the rain!